Maintain my soul

It sorta feels like I am just losing
With all this abusing
This is getting confusing
Please god help me end this right now and keep on moving
Wipe away my tears and stop me from producing
All this pain and let me have a good conclusion
Every thing used to be all-fine
Lets turn back the time
And let me see that one last sunshine
When everything back then all fell in line
It seems something is messed up with my lifeline
..Its has been broken, so why provoke this
Something must have happened, but it was unknowing
But back to this time, I can feel both of my eyes
Run over with all these emotion that I have inside
Used to be that guy that would always be right by
Your side, but seems you found another person why
Why must have you inflected this pain that cry
And why must you make my life seem plain all inside

Sometimes I think I am going insane
With..all these words that do remain
But I keep on my way and try to maintain
My soul because tomorrow can hold a better day

When a new day commences
I can see the plot thicken
With all these things I wanted in my lonely vision
I try to stop, look and listen
And take it as I get it
But something runs over my mind and then I soon forget it
I wish we did not meet
I could have stayed in the streets
Cause I didn't need all these lies, deception and deceit
I didn't need those things you did to me
And I wish I didn't even talk or speak
I tried to be too sweet
But then you learned to treat
Me with no more love, and then retreat
Back to your lonely self
Leaving me by myself
Closing up a chapter and putting it back on the bookshelf
So dark like charcoal
You opened up a hellhole
Those flames, you can see the reflection in my eye hole
But I try not to let it burn in to deep
It's a new day and I will maintain my soul to keep

Sometimes I think I am going insane
With..all these words that do remain
But I keep on my way and try to maintain
My soul because tomorrow can hold a better day

I move on towards my way
Made my own pathway
So nowadays I don't even care what you got to say
I locked the doorway
The keys I threw-away
Now I am on the other side laughing it away
Everything is now so fine
Everything is good, I have been redesign
Now I can look outside and see the sunshine
Looking up at the skyline
I can feel the whole world, and they all do comply
As I go down the stairs
You can see I don't care
What you have to say anymore, you had your share
I need to tell you to beware
Cause I have been repaired
So no more Mr. Nice guy its time for you to say a little prayer
Change of attitude you might think I was cruel
But fuck, I even played by all the rules
Let you do what you had to do now I feel misused
So I'll maintain my soul for me and not you