Loneliness

As days go by you find yourself reliving the past
Were everything was find and dandy
Were you had a place you could place your head down
Were a one person was able to make you feel better about everything
Now what do you have?
NOTHING!
These days have you contemplating thoughts that you never though you could think of
Things that normal people would call crazy and insane
As you try to find yourself in the world you find out your not normal
You don't talk like other people
You don't walk like other people
You don't even think like other people
All your motions and persona makes you feel like an outcast
Not knowing were to turn to for confinement
Using drugs and takes away the pain you now feel
As you try to tell yourself that everything will be better soon
But how soon is soon?
You have been waiting days, weeks and even months for a change
But each day it seems you are getting worse
Of all the mind games and subliminal thoughts you dwell on
Were now a white room doesn't seem like a bad idea
Then in there you won't be able to hurt yourself any more
As going outside and seeing the light burns you so much
Were everyone is looking at you and making you self conscience
But what is there to do?
How can one get out of this lifestyle?
It seems the only way is the obvious
But you are to strong to try it
So you keep to yourself and try not to infect other people
As you lock yourself in your room and write what you know
Just so you can release all the anger and hurt you have inside
As you try to get thru each day by and by
Loneliness seems the only way I can live my life
As everything else seems so strife