Pure insanity

Pure insanity,
mind confused cause no one seems to help me
Tear drops flowing from my eyes,
take this rain please
and give me the sunshine to make me believe
that everything will be alright
It feels like my head is going to explode
with all these thoughts i keep withholding
Some people might not believe me
and even might call me crazy
but I'm just trying to get thru this so let me
Be myself, even if its not the norm
Not knowing whether this cruse is my deform
But i will stay in this rainstorm,
and let these precious drops hit me once more
Dragging me down under my platform

After Love

Body and soul detach as you loose control
Now your all alone, with no one to consol,
Your feelings, believeing you have it all under control
But after love hits, you feel your life is in a hellhole
Wrapped up in so much turmorall, you sink deeper into that hole
Trying to be strong and trying to still enroll
Into the life cycle, that has you by the armhold
Trying to defer you from all of your goals
Provoking many actions, that goes without someone asking
Causing re-occurrences of visions that you keep on battleing
Fighting with the soul, as you try to keep a hold
To the connection you once had,but now you lost you sense of controll
Sumblimmal notions that stir up so much commotion
Having you linking up daily routines like it was your potion
As you need to find a way to keep hold of those emotions
You intoxicate yourself into believing its not misfortune
As it worsens, you see the plot thicken
Leaving behind the one and only mission
To find a way to carry on and leave everything were it belongs
And not to dwell on the past
So now you find help on that one and only friend
Who was there for you in thick and thin
Now finding your self thinking of them in a different way
Not knowing if they have the same feelings to display
But you keep them close anyway, Waiting for that call every single day
Just a few mintues to see what they may say,
To ask about your day
Maybe even to say i am on the way
So we can hang out and convey many messages
With no discretion,
Maybe to show some affection
So this is my Testament, sometimes it makes me sick
To feel this way, but i layed out all the evidence
So all that i just ask is you read this and write me back
Maybe we can finally have a conversation that will both make us glad

Coming back for you

With the words in veins
I speak about why I feel this way
Long nights thinking about ways I can change this thing
In actuality it could have been better then today
Only thing that makes feel happy is you anyway
This is for you word all made for you
Feelings depicting how I feel I was made for you
Basically I knew it was all a clue
Just waiting for that day I came back to you
Misery love pain
Just let me take my way
Just let me ease back up and say it many ways
This is all truth, this is what I been thru
But fucking its time for me to come back for you

Many ways to say those words you dreamed of
Many ways to shower you with so much love
But fact of it's I hold you way above
Every other person I meet just let me show you my love
Hold you tight at nights you feel the feeling right
Why push back when everything feel so right
Cause its all right you just got off a plane flight
You called I listened yeah girl I will miss you alright
Long night just wasting up time
Long nights that just pass right by
What the fuck happened to that guy?
What the hell is wrong with this guy?
Why the fuck he ain't that guy?
Sorry boo, I had to take some time too
Some shit made me reason what I didn't do
No pressure, just ease when I was with you
I am coming back, Yeah girl I am ready for you

When I come back you might have a heart attack
With feelings that overwhelm you, i can't pullback
From the way i really feel
This feeling is all so real
I forgot about that month so what's up, what's the fucking deal
Yeah girl I mean it WHATS THE FUCKING DEAL
Why are we acting all shady and all concealed?
With emotions we both know that we should reveal
Think it's about the time we act surreal
I am tired of all these mind games and bullshit
I am tired of this nonsense I seen shit
Kind of feels like it was all a myth
How we meet and ended I can't even believe this shit
But girl I am sorry for the shit I did to you
Just give me some time to say this all to you
Cause it was meant for you, it was lived for you
Time again i keep saying I REALLY LOVE YOU
Over and over again, these the words I see in visions
Mind closed shut are you really listening
Fact of the matter is I said what I had to say
Now its time for you to say 3 words o.k.

Pain and Joy

Is it with the joy, how I cry so much pain
Is it with the pain, I want joy everyday
Is with the games, I see lies come my way
While I go thru lines, joy and pain guides my way

With a whole arsenal of words, I breathe thru my lungs
While I walk thru the shadows, I see the daemons come run
While I am trying to find my place, I see the angles have already sung
Then I see that my life, have already begun
So late, I wish I knew what happen son
Times past so fast, I wish I have choose to spoken
All those words that come from above
And all those words to become, the godson
Lets cry, and forget about those bad times
Speak wide and relish all those downtimes
In a lifetime you only see few spring times
A few sunny days, and a few dark times
In the meantime you move on your way and walk high
Get on your way, there is no need for wartime
All that fighting and getting no peacetime
Pain comes in three, but the joy is right beside
Inflected with the wounds of joy that's on your mind
Pierced with the thorns that's all in your spine
No cries,no yells, no one can hear my poem lie
Down words for healing, all you need is some time
Then I will predict what is left for I
With the stories that some people seem to comply
Time flies by and I can see all my outcries
But the Joy will over come all the pain inside

Fantasies

Vivid pictures that paint morals in my mind
Leaving clues, like Da Vinci for me to find
Laying out my paths that need to be redesign
These of many fantasies I have all confined

No one can make me fall, Running with my head up
No can make me crawl, Cause I am all fed up
With all the nonsense, and that bad gossip
So many things, causing me to go and backup
I seen those dark nights, under those starlight’s
I seen those highlights, seeking for a rewrite
I’ve seen those weeknights that seemed to be foresight
Wrapped up in a ball, I can see thru my eyesight
Depictions of all my wrongs, Things that should carry on
Feeling so home alone, Cries can fear my last songs
So many places, seems that I will never belong
This is how I feel, going thru this all yearlong
Cause when I close my eyes, my soul to keep
I see these vivid pictures of Fantasy I do believe
Guide me thru these nights that I do fear in sleep
All these words bring deathly ways unto you and me

Vivid pictures that paint morals in my mind
Leaving clues, like Da Vinci for me to find
Laying out my paths that need to be redesign
These of many fantasies I have all confined

When my eyes come wide open, I hope they do stay focus
20/20 vision, hoping to see my own opus
Traveling on my way, incline to stay unbroken
Body of steal, mind of water, clear and so knowing
Knowing what I have to do, to stay ease and calm
Showing how I move, to stay the one at tall
Seeing over everyone one, even if it’s near or far
Seems like I have the world, all imprinted in my palm
Shall I be the one that can defend them all?
Should I be the one to get the daemons all involved?
Should I call on the angles so help dissolve
All the trials and tribulations when people get involved
With many ways there dreams provide the call
For them to walk this way and carry on
Locked up in worlds, can’t see the bigger scar
Fantasies, morals, deceit, but the pain carries on

Shine

Is it my time to shine?
Is it my time to ask why?
Think with your mind and make question rise
Stay back on your grind cause that’s all you try
You go thru the valleys when the trouble surely rise
Don't ask the question, cause soon time subsides
Then you will see the only reason why
You go thru the troubles that come many times
Try to educate your mind with all of these lines
Can I really speak this now?
Can I really make a sound?
Silentness is a virtue so say it with a sound
Never keep your mouth close open it twice as loud
Trying to make a vivid picture show right now
Try to make your mind find the questions inside
Cause there comes may times, you can't find out why
The problems and troubles have no answers for I
So I go back inside and write many lines
Bring pain to my name
Bring things I didn't say
Waiting for the time for me to walk away
But will I be ok? With all the things I say?
I Wont wait for my shine to go away

One Day

Is one day hard to ask for?
Just 24 hours not a minute more
Just to be in the same place as you
Don’t even have to speak to you
Should silent-ness be so blessed?
Cause its really you not weed that relieves my stress
But it seems that one-day will never come
Just cause I wanted to call you my one
Not the serious one, just the one to speak of
Just one day to see your smile
Having no reason to make me frown
Can just be myself
Not one of another self
But all has gone
Mistakes have been brought on
But still one day for all
Having a place to call home
Nothing else seems so soft and calm
Not it's twelve O one
A new day has just begun